Ambition

Do you ever spend part of your day just wasting time doing nothing important because you have no ambition or desire to do anything at all? Worse yet, doing meaningless things that just while away time that you'll never get back. If the answer to that question is a big, fat "YES", then I know exactly how you feel. 

I don't know what it is, but I have had such a lack of ambition lately I don't know what has come over me. I am thinking that it is really because I am just flat out tired. Tired of working like crazy, tired of not being able to get my own things done, tired of wasting time on playing meaningless video games, tired of being tired.

I think I am just worn out. That has to be the reason because I have been sleeping a bit more so that I can gain my physical and mental energy back. Once that returns, I think I will be able to get my ambition back to do the things I want to do, whether work related or not.

I wonder if my problem is due to the fact that I worked an extraordinary amount of overtime last year. Although, I have spent the better part of my career working a lot of hours, so I don't know why I would feel any different. I like working by I am beginning to like it a little less because it takes me away from the things I love more. 

I suppose work is the thing that identifies me, but it is not the only thing. The older I get, the more I remember about the other things that I want to be known for...such as my compassion, my writing and other creative projects, my loyalty and love for my family and friends. 

While I may have a temporary lack of ambition, my desire to get things done has not waned. I have noticed that I am accomplishing a few things here and there on my never-ending "To Do List". Not as much as I would like, but enough to make me feel better about things.

The more I think about it, I truly believe this is God's way of telling me to slow down and enjoy life a little more. He's right. I do work way too hard and forget about the simple joys in life. I am more than my job, I am more than my writing and hobbies. I am more than...I am just me...Susan. 

For now, while I just finished another of the many "To Dos", I am going to sit back with a glass of something fun to drink and a bowl of popcorn, and dream about of one of my favorite places.

Wishing you moments to just relax.
 

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I am Tired and Writing-ed Out

I am tired...bone weary. My head even hurts. I am sure you have probably noticed that I have not been writing as much as I used to. Yes, it's true. I'm not. At least not here...or anywhere else for that matter. It is not to say that I haven't been writing, because I have. I have been on writing overdrive at my day job.

In fact, I have been on overdrive at my day job for months, and it has completely worn me out. Some days it is all I can do to just get out of bed. I live on caffeine and chocolate these days. I know this is really bad, but what can I do. In the meantime, I have completely tapped out my creative juices for other things. No book reviews, no website development for my own personal projects, and doing just the bare minimum to keep my writing gigs live enough so I don't get shut off. As for my other projects that I've promised to finish...well...I've haven't  quite gotten around to them yet. 

Still trying to work on those, but seriously, I am just about "writing-ed out"! My brain is tired from all the thinking and organizing and making everything sound good for the work I am producing for my day job. I never thought I would say that, but I am. Secretively though, I'm really putting myself first, although on the surface it really doesn't look like it.

But all is not lost, but I see the end in sight. Hopefully by the end of the year, I will have completed my goal, paid off the last of our obligations, and if the work doesn't slow down, then maybe find a job that is less stressful and gives me more time to pursue my passion. I am counting the days. So in the meantime, my creativity juices are taking a break while my regular work takes a front seat until things settle down. 

Wishing you moments to stay focused on your goals and remember, when in doubt, put yourself first.

 

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