Letting Go

You can always tell when I am working a lot. The most telling sign is that I haven't written! Once again, I am sorry that I haven't been around much, but I've been making hay while the sun is shining! This is an expression that my dad always said when I was young and it has sort of stuck with me as an adult.

The money has been really nice since I am desperately trying to pay down the last of the credit card debt. I'm finally seeing the light of day and hope that this year everything will be paid off. With a little due diligence, I think I can finally do it. It's going to require selling off a few things, but it's mostly items I no longer look at, wear or need. My tastes have changed over the years and I really feel like it is time to divest my self of a few things. Or, as my husband says, remove some of the detritus!

Sometimes it is hard to let go and that is what I really want to talk about. Letting go of the past and moving toward the future. While the past shapes and molds you to the person you've become, it's really all about taking that knowledge and moving forward to do the things that you want to do and become the person that you want to become.

Opportunities are endless but they require putting in a little effort. I've always subscribe by the theory that you have to make things happen for yourself. So when you're not happy, then do something about it because you're the only one holding you back. It's like all that stuff in your house that is taking up room and keeping you from remodeling, buying something new or even living comfortably. 

Now while I like having my stuff around me, I have two problems.One is that I love my stuff so much I don't want to use it and two, I have too much stuff for my space. At some point, the stuff becomes too much and you either move to a bigger place or you have have to divest of it. In the last several years, I've had moments where I have gone through my stuff, sorted and organized it so that I could let it go, either to to goodwill or the dumpster. It's a very cathartic experience, and I highly recommend it. 

Letting go of the past, via your stuff, so that you can move on is the first step for living the rest of your life to the fullest. Go for it. It's a great feeling!

Wishing you moments to let go,

 

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Letting Go...

Removing the cape was easy, but letting go...well that is a whole other story.

I recently read a post from one of my new favorite bloggers, Lori Lynn Smith. Her website, Live Your Passions, has a wealth of wonderful musings. Lori Lynn's post, Find Your Inner Peace in Chaos of this World, talks about finding your inner peace in the midst of the chaos of the day. It got me thinking about my own personal chaos, and what I did to navigate my way down the road to my own inner peace.

For years I have struggled with "letting go". It didn't matter what it was, it just seemed like I always agonized over everything. Do they like me? Did I do a good job? What if they hate me? Will I be included in (fill in the blank here)? Sometimes it involved other things, for example where did I put (fill in the blank here)? I would search endlessly for whatever it was I was looking for. I was really lost without knowing it. Looking back, I think the thing I was really searching for was me.

I had my own personal hand in creating the chaos surrounding me. I freely admit it. I thought I was managing just fine, but in actuality, it was controlling me and I was wrapped around it's finger hanging on for dear life. For years it consumed me until I could no longer take it and I shouted to the three Fates, "Enough!" They heard me...

It wasn't until I took off the cape, that I finally realized that I could let go. It came though at a great cost to myself. The road that I was on had so many turns, curves and potholes, I wasn't sure I could go any further. The weight I had been carrying was getting heavier and I felt I could barely breathe anymore. I wasn't sleeping and my diet and exercise program...well, let's just say that didn't exist anymore. I was so busy taking care of everyone else, that I forgot the most important person to take care of...me.

With the cape gone, I knew that there was only one more thing left to do, and that was take the final leap. It was going to be hard and painful, but I was already suffering, so I figured why not add a bit more. "Take the leap!", the Three Fates shouted to me. So I did. I knew it wasn't going to be pretty, but what the heck! When I finally landed, I hit the ground hard and felt the air rush out of my lungs. I knew I was alive, but I was battered and bruised, and bared a severe case of road rash. It was not pretty, but I was alive, and despite everything, I was breathing. And oh the pain...the pain...the pain. How could I possibly be alive? I sent out a lifeline to everyone, family and friend, who would listen. My husband, my parents, my true friends...they all listened and they all helped.

At that moment, the heavy burden that I had been carrying all these years seemed so far away. As I tried to catch my breath, all I could do was just lay there. I stayed that way, for a long time. The Fates knew that this was the beginning of a new era. "Take care of you," they said to me. So that's what I did. I was somewhat afraid that I had forgotten how to take care of myself. Would I be able to do it? The only way to find out was to try. It has taken six months, but I finally feel like I am on the road again.

It hasn't been easy. The way to true inner peace is never I have found. There will always be setbacks, but it's a bit like falling off a bike. You just get up and get right back on that bike and keep going. The good news is that I don't feel so weighed down anymore and my vision is clearer so that I can stay on the right path. I think that the road will always have the s-curves and potholes, but I am stronger now to navigate them.

By "letting go", I was finally able to see that what I had been doing was causing me more harm than good. "Letting go" gave me the freedom to finally see where I really wanted to go. "Letting go" gave me back my life. "Letting go" allowed me to find the one thing that had been lost for a very long time...me.

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