Ok, so I don’t have raven hair or ruby lips, and I haven’t driven myself to madness…yet. However, Halloween is almost here and I must admit I have secretly loved this time of year forever.
Not only is it the chance to let loose and decorate like a mad woman (time to bring out the cape, broom and all the cool Tchotchkes), but it allows me to stop wearing the mask that I have on most of the time. I am like an onion, and I have many, many layers.I have been hiding for years...it is only recently that I have decided to start peeling away a few layers to reveal who I really am.
For some, this day brings thoughts of terror, haunting and distress, but frankly, I’m not into horror or the macabre, so those aspects of this holiday hold no interest for me whatsoever. However, since the Harry Potter phenomenon, I have decided to explore some of my inner “witch”. And, since I really like to read, there is a lot of interesting stuff out there to explore, not to mention the fact that I really need some answers to a few things.
I have always had a strange connection to things around me. I wouldn’t call it an impending sense of doom, but rather a strong feeling that something is about to happen…whether bad or good. For years, I squelched these feelings probably because I didn’t understand them, but more than likely due to a staunch religious upbringing. I am not afraid anymore to have an opinion that goes against my ingrained traditions. More importantly, I have decided to not stomp out these feelings and run with them instead. So, I have thrown open the door, the windows, my mind, my heart and anything else I can open to become more in tune with the elements around me and try to make sense out of it all.
Now that I have opened this portal to strangeness, I just want to say that I am not trying to search for the meaning of life. Rather, I am just trying to figure out why I can feel things about to happen, interpret the reoccurring dreams I have, understand the connections I have to people and things, discover why I have this incredible and intense need to unearth these deep, dark secrets about myself that I never knew existed, and find out the answer to why I sometimes get pulled in another direction when I am in the middle of writing.
There are so many roads to take and I am almost giddy with excitement. I hope I can stand the ride as I don’t do well on the twists and turns. Maybe I should stock up on the Dramamine now, or at the very least, some ginger pills. (Oh man…I’ve done it again…holistic versus traditional medicine??? This is not the time to go there!) But, for now, I am going to explore my love of Halloween art – the fun side of it – not the creepy. It’s time to start peeling away another layer…
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| Yes...I do feel Bewitching... |
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| ...and Beautiful! |
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| Time to go out and show the world! |
I have always had that 6th sense. Mostly, it was just interesting, but occasionally it was just scary. I knew many times in my life that tragedy was on the horizon. Two weeks before my Mother died in a fire, I told her that I didn't feel like she was safe and I was afraid there would be a fire. Yeah...like that... I don't like it when that stuff happens. It's okay when I know who is calling before I answer a phone, but to know when I will lose a loved one is terrible. If I could lose this ability, I would be more than happy to do so....
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel Darlene. I've had some truly frightening premonitions. I really hate it when this happens...especially when it occurs in threes, as they say. I am so sorry about your mom...wow...I've been in a similar situation, and it literally knocks the wind right out of me. I'm right there with you...wanting so desperately to lose the ability but I know it's never going to go away. Thank you for sharing with me. Now I know I am not alone.
ReplyDeleteI think it's so true that many of us experience these kinds of feelings. The key is to understand them and explore them perhaps in order to develop them. Nice post! Jim.
ReplyDeleteI have had premonitions as well and even run across a few ghosts in my time. Great blog!
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This is not just a charming post with great pictures, but I love the peeling onion and how you wove this inner witch into Halloween. I also like you feel things around me. I have embraced it fully now, and feel more hapiness and connectedness to most everything. I can see aura's now, dream things to happen about me family and friends. My friends think it's a hoot. Keep on taking layers down girl friend, but be gently in this process.
ReplyDeleteI think we are given gifts - whatever they may be, whether to sense certain things about to happen, to walk on a balance beam (definitely not one of mine!) to write, to heal - for a reason. We can try to run away from them, but we usually don't get very far.
ReplyDeleteCheering you on as you explore your witchy side!
I'm all about you finding more layers of Susan...but please don't lose the one we all love!
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